artWow... I haven't blogged in ages... Things have been pretty busy. Skits here and there, babysitting, boys, cars, pathfinders, youth groups, basements, and GRADUATING!
It's strange to be homeschooled, especially when you come to that point in your life to kiss highschool goodbye... I don't get a year book for all of my friends to sign... I don't want to march alone with a bunch of people coming just to see me... It seems ridiculous, and I'm a pretty realistic kind of gal... And with everything going on in my life... I don't have the time to have a party, either...
Most people are filled with memories from highschool. The nerds, preps, jocks... Their group of friends... Their favorite teachers... And please don't think I'm pouting and complaining, but I didn't get that...
I'm a very serene person. Nothing seems to phase me. I take things as they come and don't fret about disappointments... And, I don't get very excited about things... especially not visually excited. People generally have to ASK if I'm excited about something.
Another thing that will be keeping me busy is work... I'm heading off to camp again this summer. Last summer I was a part of the kitchen crew, but now there will be a huge change... I'm going to be in charge of a class. Creative Arts - Drama, Sign Language, Arts and Crafts... I'm also in charge of props and costumes for all of the evening programs... Exciting, right? Well, to be honest, I'm filled with mixed emotions. I'm excited, confused, worried, stressed, and even a little scared...
I never have experienced emotion on an extreme level... I rarely show my emotions... Many people think it's unusual. I love and care for everyone... But, to show that emotion on a higher level then a smile and hug when I see them... It just doesn't come very well sometimes... Although, a lot of people aren't as friendly as I am... and unfortunately... people keep falling for me.
That brings me to another problem I've been having... People falling for me. One of my biggest problems is that I tend to send the wrong signals... Something as simple as a smile can seem flirty with me... apparently? It seems crazy sometimes... I'm pretty observant, but every time someone tells me they like me... I'm surprised... because even if I've thought about it, I always tell myself I'm wrong... every time... Why? I don't know... I tend to read people right the first time, second guess myself, and get it all wrong.
Well, I don't want to make this too terribly long. No one really read my last post... It was WAY long. I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!! Ciao!
